quite a while i might add.
haha .
there's something up with my com and it seems my account is the only which is affected resulting in me having to use mummy's account .
gee .
some activeX control thang which i can't bloody get rid of,not that i've tried .
but i can't go on the net and all .
tsk .
not much of a holiday i must say .i'm back in school four outta five days .
oh well .
.
acsb funfair on saturday wasn't too bad .
bloody crowded though .
fredrick kept wanting ta get dunked .
im tired now .
i shan't type .
well because i simply don't want to .
im looking forward to dinner at jack's place tomorrow .
shalalalala.
Difference between the one
you like
and the one you love
In front of the person you like, your heart
beats faster
But in front of the person you love, you get
happy.
In front of the person you love, winter seems
like spring.
But in front of the person you like, winter is
just beautiful winter.
If you look into the eyes of the one you like,
you blush.
But if you look into the eyes of the one you
love, you smile.
In front of the person you like, you can't say
everything on your mind.
But in front of the person you love, you can.
In front of the person you like, you tend to get
shy.
But in front of the person you love, you can
show your own self.
You can't look straight into the eyes of the
one you like.
But you can always smile and stare into the
eyes of the one you love.
When the one you like is crying, you end
up comforting.
But when the one you love is crying, you cry
with
them.
The feeling of like starts from the ear.
But the feeling of love starts from the eye.
So if you stop liking a person you used to
like, all you need to do is cover your ears.
But if you try to close your eyes, love turns
into a drop of tear and remains in your heart
forever.
what does the above mean?
because if it's bloody true then im one confused girl .
Charis Vera `livedd @ 9:41:00 pm
take my life, i don't want it anymore .wandered around yesterday til elizabeth called.
i was gonna head home but instead,met up with her .
guess i enjoyed the me-time for a while.
but i felt strangely alone.
i have no qualms about being alone of course, but oddly enough i felt so empty last night .
so empty .met up with elizabeth and cherrie.
it was like...9.30 already?
gee .
i'd never been to grapevine before.
and it was nice=]
honest.
we left close to 11.30 and i headed home.
was falling asleep as i walked.
literally sleep walking.
i closed my eyes knowing it was a straight path .
and one point, a taxi driver slowed and stuck his head out the window,
staring at me hard.
embarrassing .
got home,
mummy didn't want to talk to me .
i fell asleep immediately.
woke up at like 8 plus realizing i was bloody late for the thingg in school i had ta attend.
mum's door was locked.
couldn't get my clothes ta change so i gave up and went back ta sleep.
eventually i was up and changed.
and now,
sitting here .
in a very empty house in a very empty living room .
living a very empty life .
just take my life Lord, i don't want it anymore .- from the heart
sometimes you do stuff which you think will help.
it just pushes me the other way .
maybe you shouldn't have had me
not our decision to make i know,
but i dont get woken up that easily.
so why don't you just take me away?
rid the world of me mom,
because if i do it,
you'll be cross with me.
if you do it,
we'll both be happy.
damn it's the best thingg i've come up with.
i know you love me,
i love you too .
but you can love someone so much you hate that person .
someone said you cared.
you care so much you don't .
i don't either .
not anymore .
Charis Vera `livedd @ 2:03:00 pm
sometimes things gets so difficult.
so strained.
all you wanna do is lie down,
forget the pain.
pour the pills out and stare at em hard
they'll probably help alot more,
then a painful bleeding cut.
curl up so small,so tight
close your eyes and slip into darkness.
travel that never ending tunnel and stay
ain't it so much better this way?
no tears or pain
so much easier to stay sane
to simply fall asleep and not wake up,
disappear into the ground
oblivious to all around.
kiss its sorry ass goodbye.
Charis Vera `livedd @ 9:52:00 pm
[me .]
[Countess Jemimah Eveil]
[ex-netballer]
[English Literatury Drama and Debate]
[march17_baby@hotmail.com]
I hope you never fear the
mountains in the distance.
Never settle for the path
of least resistance.
Lovin' might be a mistake
but its worth making.
When you get a chance to
sit it out or dance.
I hope you dance
Promise me you'll give faith
a fighting chance.
Give the heavens above more
than just a passing glance.
Realised i like you
for who you are,
I can't tell you its
a facade:
Don't let your hell bent heart
leave you bitter,
When you come close
to selling out,
please reconsider.
I hope you dance
