that girls haf a habit of bottling things up inside and then suddenly eploding at someone.
what a looong looong tyme since i've blogged.
haha..
went out with daarlingg twinnie on friday=)
we watched elektra.
hadta walk from cine all the wayy to lido because they didn have nice seats.
after the movie we were tempted,so so so tempted ta stay fer another movie,i mean..
after we were done in the toilet the next movie was alreadi starting.
but we didn have tyme:(
another yime,perhaps.
hahaa
and there were so so so many guys checking herr out but she didnt wanna believe me!
got herr belly button re-pierced and got mah stud tightened because the bloody thing is alwaes so loose.
tsk .
took neoprints.
-sniffle.
i miss kerry soooo much now:(
young vines yesterday,went out fer dinner at pasir ris park after that.
i tried stingray!after i had just told sam how evil he was fer eating the poor innocent stingray,i myself ate it.
tsk-shakes head.
but it was reeaalli nice=)
and the weather was absolutely perfect.hahaa
now i hafta get back into the swing of the evilness of school .
i'm gonna be in deep deep shit tmr.
and there's also a history test.and i also have chi homework.
-sighh.isn't this fun?going through the amount of poop im in.
let's see..ohh yes,im also gonna flunk the ting xie i took last week.
collapses to the ground-
how on earth am i gonna get through this year?
world of mah own-
i've given up darling,
this is way too much fer me to handle.
i've waited so so long,
and i simply can't anymore.
i still love youu,
so very much.
but youu're obviously not quite ready,
and sweetie..
i just can't wait no more .
-my own thoughts
love comes softly,
when one leasts expects it.
it's lovely watching my friends get together.
as for me,
i strongly feel that for me to love a person,
i hafta first noe himm.
for now,
i guess i'll just hafta do other things...
because i cannot hang around all my life,
waiting fer someone to love me in return .
Charis Vera `livedd @ 1:58:00 pm
i saw the glint of the blade in my hand through vision blurred with tears.
it would end so fast and yet,i didnt want it to.
i always cut there and it'd be the first place she would look.
grabbing blindly at a few loose papers in my little study corner,
i slashed viciously.
satisfied i started tearing more papers out from the magazines there,
finally,they had a purpose.
i tore out loads at a time and slashed at them again and again.
the sheer force would cut and fling quite a few pieces to the ground at the first slash.
the blade isnt sharp by the way,at least..not that sharp.
i tried tearing the pieces but it isn't as satifying as well,
slashing around.
that corner of my room is now littered with pieces of paper.
i wonder what i'd be now if it wasn't paper i had cut.
little pieces of me,
strewn around.
stepped on.
im ok
Charis Vera `livedd @ 10:33:00 pm
went out today in the afternoon,
and i was going torwards the bustop,i saw this HOTT black guy.
he had a really HOTT bodyy.
haha.
and he asked mi fer my number-smiles
but i didn't give it to himm.
-sighh
don't askk why.
i just didn't.
went out and came backk pretty quick.
now im gonna go jogging with momma
-pokes fatts-
i feel so wobbbly.
waddles off]]
Charis Vera `livedd @ 1:12:00 am
there aint much ta tell.
went out with daddy last night,
we hadd a gorgeous dinner.
we couldn watch a movie in the end though.
ohh well.
*world of mah own
i wasn't given the chance,
and though it'll be hardd.
i hafta say goodbye.
'cos darlin,
i can't wait forever..
[the sweetest goodbye]
Charis Vera `livedd @ 2:30:00 pm
it's the end of the first week!
yayy.
hahaa.
ooohh.
yesterday these ah bengs asked fer mah number.ackk.
but they're pretti nice i guess:)
chinese-speaking.-wince
todayy they hung arnd outside school waiting fer me-.-
stayed backk til late after school .
hafta head ta school at 7.45 tmr-groan
im tired.
n typing with one hand.
toodles .
Charis Vera `livedd @ 6:04:00 pm
vic came over tonight to help fix then com=)
thanks a mil veek.
school wasn't too badd.
the plans fer the cca fair haf totally changed.
im gonna be...well there isnt an exact name fer what im gonna be.
youu'll see=)
that is,before i freak youu out.
hahaa.
school hasn't been that badd.
i hafta aim high.
real high to get the grades i want.
i've decided i'll go fer A math.it's not because i luuurve math.
i dun hate it,and im not good at it,but with practice i now i can be.
to me,personally,i'd rather go fer math than F&N or art.
because i suck at both.
honest.
my cooking sux real badd,esp if im just learning and stuff...
and mah art..
well.
it's just special=)
*mah own world*
im just playin by ear.
livin each day as it comes along.
even if..
it's without youu.
because sooner or later it'll hafta be this way,
anyway.
Charis Vera `livedd @ 12:36:00 pm
it wasn't that badd.
stayed up til 4,wen i hafta get up at 5.tsk .
then i rolled around in
bedd til 4.50 wen i started dozing off and mah alarm clock rang.
momma came in and i mumbled smth about not getting any sleep so she woke mi up again at about 5.45.
was a madd rush gettin outta the house and ended up cabbing it ta skool.
the sec1s dun seem too badd.
i like the look of awe they give us-wicked smile
and no,they do not remind mi of myself when i was sec1.
puhhleease.
i might've been rather dorky at the start with mah extremely long pinifore,but i so did not look like them.
tsk .
we hadd a tour of the school which wasn't so badd.
'cept i was expected ta lead my
extremely enthusisatic class in cheers. gee.
-im sucha copy cat but=)
shoutouts:
momma-
youu mighn't read this but besides elizabeth,youu're the one i can confide most in=D
even though youu sometymes nagg me and come in with your "mommy-ness"
but then again,youu are my momma:)as well as the older sister i've alwaes wishhed for(the one hu pampers me silly)haha
i love youu loads momma and thanks for alwaes being there when i needed youu.
thanks fer telling me wen im simply wastin my tyme on creatures like mucus and fart or simply unbaked bread.youu rawk momma!(but i still rawk more.heh)
i love youu i love youu i love youu i love youu i love youu i love youu i love youu i love youu!
elizabeth-
my sugarr*pukes
thanks for being the bestest darlingest friend one could ever have...i dunno how i'd haf gotten through this year without youu*muacks
i love youu loads sweetheart and youu noe i'll alwaes be here if youu need to talk:)
bwinkae buu-
sweetiest widdle darlingg buu.
i wub youu loads!youu mean so much to me and i'd be buu-less without youu.all the bestest fer this coming year darlingg and quit bullying peole who arent as widdle as youu! *muacks
the kewtiest buu of bWiNkX left herr kewtiest buutprints here*_
kerry-
my dearest darlinggest twinnie!
how could i haf not found youu earlier my other half?!
it's so strange that we didn just meet this year.we met like..onli about a month ago.
it was obvious we clicked immediately and i wub youu sooo vewi vewi much twinnie*muacks
take loads of care this year with your cheerleading and stuff.
enjoy yourself and NO youu are not fatt!i am!-sticks out tongue-
nerdizza(the wittle pokemon)-
HAHA
my darlingg hubby!*kisses ner
youu're one of the bestest shopping buddies ever=D
we hafta go shopping soon!soon soon soon!
youu've been a great friend to talk to about,well everything..
the bestest(and only) person i can start imagining futures for people with.
remember how we discussed *coff* and *ahem*?hahaa
it's like i've known youu forever and i've onli met youu this year:)
like youu said,we've all definately grown alot closer and hung onto each other unlike those other cliques all over the place.hahaa.
i love youu loads sweetheart!dun study too hardd this year or your hair might fall out=D
hannie bannanie-
the girl with the hottest bod ever!
quit losing weight,youu're not fatt!hahaa
youu're an awesome person to go shopping with,our taste in gorgeous expensive clothes we can't affor is absolutely impeccable.
study hardd fer this year sweetheart,i love youu loads=)
aidan-
im doing this cux i might not be able to say bye to youu before youu leave so
BYE.and haf a wonderful tyme in thailand.
all the best fer the following year and dun overwork yourself with studies=)
lotsa love!
veektor-
i rawk i rawk i rawk!
thanks fer being someone i can alwaes talk to and fer being to me,the bigg brother i never hadd=)
take loads of care while youu're in the army.im gonna laugh at youu wen youu come backk all bald.hurrhurr
Jalore-
youu suck fer leaving me here,all alone,in this school,without someone to hugg.
all the best fer this following year sweetheart.takkair an dpromise we'll keep in touch*muacks
i hafta stopp here or i'm just gonna go on and on and on.
i shall now go jogging!
joggjoggjogg.
toodles!
Charis Vera `livedd @ 5:42:00 pm
came ta blog for a while since you asked me to .
NAH , im not gonna say i love you .
NAH , im not gonna say you rock .
BCOS , im not as ego as You . - points ta charis .
LOL .
i wanted ta type smth for you in my blog but gave up .
HAHAHA .
and im too lazy now . So , yeah .
:P
STAY HAPPY WOMANNNNNNN .
you're my HONEY . i'm yr SUGAR .
(( get me a bucket , i'm gonna puke ))
Charis Vera `livedd @ 6:50:00 pm
2.23pm
yeaa..
i noe it's kinda late but i havn't been able to come online all that much.
haha.
i love the new layout though.
simple,elegant and in my opinion,classy=)
the week's not been too badd,
and i hadd fun in cmc and stuff.
victor came and everyone automatically took it that he was my boyfriend.
gee .
i mean..-shakes head-
and like this guy who i knew,his son apparently likes me..
he asked about victor and was like
"ohh,he's 21?your mom doesn mind the age gap?"
and im like...
"err.he's not my boyfriend"
went pubbing after that.
i got to try Erdinger's which was realli nice and the cups they came in were so cuute!
went back home at about 4.30/5am
ohh wells.
dinner at aunty susan's place yesterday...
i was sulking so i onli took a lil bit of pie.
which was extremely nice by the way.hahaa
was supposed to go ta cmc today,i mean..
i had the alarm set,my clothes planned out and everything packed and ready...
but i slept through the alarm and woke up at 11.tsk.
*mah own world*
i dun geddit?
please explain.
im on the verge of givin up,
i can't make it through the rain.
at first i didn't understand,
why she didn want me going through so much pain..
bcause it all seemed nothing,
when youu smiled your smile,it took away that pain.
but now it all seems unclear,
i hardly understand.
please explain it all to me,
tell me where i stand.
Charis Vera `livedd @ 2:59:00 pm
[me .]
[Countess Jemimah Eveil]
[ex-netballer]
[English Literatury Drama and Debate]
[march17_baby@hotmail.com]
I hope you never fear the
mountains in the distance.
Never settle for the path
of least resistance.
Lovin' might be a mistake
but its worth making.
When you get a chance to
sit it out or dance.
I hope you dance
Promise me you'll give faith
a fighting chance.
Give the heavens above more
than just a passing glance.
Realised i like you
for who you are,
I can't tell you its
a facade:
Don't let your hell bent heart
leave you bitter,
When you come close
to selling out,
please reconsider.
I hope you dance
