actually waltzed into the wrong skool,momma insisted it was ryte cux the stoopid piece of paper said "new campus"
...
realized that ner was on the same train as me,wen i got off,i walked directly torwards herr and she torwards me.
basically hung around holland v then went back ta auntie susan's place where we all went out fer dinner,thus bringing my extremely eventful day to a close.
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Charis Vera `livedd @ 11:20:00 pm
11.45pm
*mah own world*
it's sadd isn't it?
how it wun work out.
how it won't ever work out.
as much as i'd like it to.
wishing,
hoping,
praying.
but it wouldn't.ever.
Charis Vera `livedd @ 11:44:00 pm
10.47pm
veektor just left,he came over fer dinner and was helpin ta fix stuff aorund the house.haha.
thanks a mil vic=)
i just hadd a talk with momma.
i realized i've gone out with quite a few guys,
and gotten mahself into shitty situations..
all beacause of one guy.
one guy that i realli like.
this is all so stupid.
tsk.
especially the last two guys i went out with.
what an absolute waste of tyme..
i've foun dmy life and im livin it.
why don't youu two desperate people go get a life.
he texted mi tonight,while victor was at mah place.
was askin if i'd found mr.right yet?
like it was any of his bloody business.
im wasting energy typing about himm.
what a waste of space on earth.gee
*mah own world*
all that i put myself through,
was realli,
honestly,
simply just to get over youu.
but after everything i realized,that it was youu i realli loved.
it was youu i've alwaes, alwaes been thinking of.
waddles off]]
Charis Vera `livedd @ 10:42:00 pm
2.24pm
im sittin here.
stonin.
wastin mah dayy away.
sighh.
tsk.
in the end didn go out today.
sumone remind mi why again?
tsk.
o.0
just chatted with kerry.
she's so kewt!
ahh!
it's like talkin with myself=)
-beams
well,
kind of.
and everyone noes im kewt=)
shalalala.
Charis Vera `livedd @ 2:22:00 pm
11.34pm
HAPPI BIRTHDAY CHARMAINE.
HAPPI BELATED 16TH BIRTHDAY NICOLA SWEETHEART!
there.
well,woke up this morning and set up the christmas tree=)
finally.
hahaa.
the christmas lights are wierd though.they blink like what,once every 23hours i think.gee.
went ta downtown east where charmaine's havin herr birthday bash.
it was quite fun=)
hahaa.
going out tmr with buu i think?
and vic's comin over fer dinner.hahaa.
supposed ta help mi fix the com as well but now it's okayy.
aniwae..
day after will be out with clara and the day after that,meetin jalore.
lalala.
busy busy me=)
i'm slackin til next week.i haf alot of homework.
havn't even bloody started yet.
tsk.
im lookin forward ta christmas!lalala.
christmas!=)
*mah own world*
i dun want alot fer christmas.
there is just one thing i need.
i dun care about the presents,
underneath the christmas tree.
i just want youu for mah own,
more than youu can ever noe...
make mah wish come true..
all i want fer christmas...
is youu
Charis Vera `livedd @ 11:33:00 pm
2.58pm
aint it nice?
i just read the book.didnt bother ta watch the movie and i haf now come ta regret it.
tsk.
the story was beautiful though.
and it has sucha sadd ending.
sighh.
went out after young vines yesterday.
watched "after the sunset".
i didn even noe about the show.hahaa.
but it was nice and worth watching though.
i miss elizabeth.tsk.
wen she sees this she's gonna get all ego.
hahaa.
ohh well.
i havn't started on my homework yet,i am approaching my doom!
aahh.
three weeks left of holidays while
certain people are complainin bout a holidae extended for 3,4 months.
gee.
wad i would give fer that.
lalala.
i love my new layout.hahaa
*world of mah own*
wad a load of bullshit.
"i will alwaes love youu"?
yeaa ryte.
"i'll do anything ta be with youu"?
more crap.
youu're all sweet talk.
thanks for making me feel stupid.used.
"i dun feel the chemistry anymore"
youu see,
there wasn't any in the beginning.
there never was a youu and i.
there was alwaes that sumone else youu see.
no matter how much i kidded myself.
deep down inside i knew.
there was never an us.
Charis Vera `livedd @ 3:22:00 pm
nov 11th'04,saturday morn
3.29am
im on the fone with elizabeth ryte now=)
at this rate she aint never gonna go ta sleep cux she's supposed ta wake up at 5 or sumthin.hahaa.
now she going
"lalalala,im going high!(laughs maniacally at this point)are youu there?hurrhurr.i think butthair's awake!hurrhurrhurrhurr."
me:"youu're high"
herr:"no im not!im closing my eyes,im FLYINGG"
-clears throat
got back from HK todae and vic,buu,eli,zoe,ner,hannie,kris suprised mi by being there=)such darlingg sweeties.
thank youu
now elizabeth's screeching/whining out "twinkle twinkle lil stars"
(she laughs to herrself at this point)
gee.
now she's going off ta sleep.poor girlie.tired outta herr lil bird-brain.
HK was beautiful.
did quite a bit of shopping there=)
met my godmother and momma's old classmates.they go wayy back
*world of mah own*
i guess i looked forward ta seeing youu again.
but the more i thought about it,
the more confused i got.
there was alwaes that sumone else youu see.
and sadd ta say,
though i was happy with youu,
in love was one thing i wasn't.
cux i hadd sumone else on mah mind.
wen i arrived i expected ta hear from youu,
a sign.
anything.that youu were still there.
but instead i got a message,
from sumone else hu cared.
all this while youu were just a rebound.
between us there was never anything.
sadd but true it is.
cux sumone else has hadd my heart,
a relationship worth dreaming.
*mah own world*
youu were there,
at the beginning.
and at the end.
Charis Vera `livedd @ 12:58:00 am
-LA tyme-
12.27am,saturday/sunday
jux came back from another movie=D
house of flying daggers is a veri nice movie.
extremely beautiful with zilch storyline.
so dun get to0 upset if ya find yourself trying ta figure bits of the movie out,it just means u're stupid.go ask your doc if he noes how ta help youu=)
im absolutely serious here.
i mean,how much more serious do i hafta be?
im up in the middle of the night typing this while my
23 year old cousin hu is SUPPOSEDLY veri intelligent is continuously saying
"BUBLE" over and over and over again.
quote: "buble!BOOOOO-BLAY!i like this word!i sound so british!buble!BOO-BLAY"
-clears throat.
he's gonna turn it into a word now.gee
now he's saying he's BOO-BLAY.
wotevaa
Charis Vera `livedd @ 4:27:00 pm
-LA tyme-
december 4th,saturday.
10.33am
monday's approaching too fast.and i dun like it
-pouts
these past few daes..havn't been to0 badd.
pretti okay,imjux extremely broke.dammit.
watched a movie last night.glenn rented
"league of extraodinary gentleman"
it was a prettie good show.aint to0 badd.
ya need alot of imagination though.
slept at 2am.gee.
mah eyebaggs!
-whines
it was so cold last night,mah teeth were chattering.
hahaa.
glenn's gotten mi started on this author hu's real funny.
haha.
Dave Barry's his name.
and his books are hilarious!
he has the ability to charm one with nonsense so compelling that it almost makes sense!
(pause fer laughter)
aniwae.aint doin much now...
jux hadd breakfast.
gonna go ta cosco ta pick up mah pictures todae,and then we're going shopping.
with all of the US$21 i haf in mah wallet.tsk.
mah lil sister,hu by the way is 11 years of age,still has like...
about US$120++ out of the US$162 we both were given.
i've spent so bloody much!
-whines
okayy,i hafta stop whining like..now=)
missing youu guys heaps!
waddles off]]
Charis Vera `livedd @ 2:32:00 am
-LA tyme-
tuesday,30th nov'04,5.07pm
i dun wanna go home=(
while i was bathing last nite i realized...
i realized that no matter how much i miss y'all back in singapore,
im gonna miss LA wen i leave.
and blast it all,im leaving next monday and headin fer hongkong.
frig.
wen i first arrived all i could think about was how much i missed y'all back in singapore.
and dun get mi wrong,i do even now.
but then,ta think that i'll be leaving so soon.
i dun wanna go=(
im gonna miss all mah beeg brothers i've alwaes wished fer.
especially glenn=D
cux he's like a beeg brother ta mi.
hurrhurr.
aniwae,enuff whining.
went jogging last nite.
it was bloody cold.
okayy,imagine feeling warm inside,sweating,
yet ya feel so cold and ya can't breathe properly.
hahaa.
it was pretti much like that.
aniwae,im off ta enjoy wad's left of my veri wasted day.
s'long!
Charis Vera `livedd @ 10:06:00 am
[me .]
[Countess Jemimah Eveil]
[ex-netballer]
[English Literatury Drama and Debate]
[march17_baby@hotmail.com]
I hope you never fear the
mountains in the distance.
Never settle for the path
of least resistance.
Lovin' might be a mistake
but its worth making.
When you get a chance to
sit it out or dance.
I hope you dance
Promise me you'll give faith
a fighting chance.
Give the heavens above more
than just a passing glance.
Realised i like you
for who you are,
I can't tell you its
a facade:
Don't let your hell bent heart
leave you bitter,
When you come close
to selling out,
please reconsider.
I hope you dance
