den went ta dohby,onli ta receive an sms from mah mum saying she'll meet mi at home
hey y'all...
i realized...
dat after so long workin with everyone fer de musical...
in about 11,10 days...it's all gonna be over.
we'll haf the musical n *pooF*
lives...back to normal....the onli thing we'll be left with is...
well,memories...
probably mostly of the countless rehearsals and..
and...the tyme spent with everyone else...
the precious tyme spent joking around,swapping sick jokes..
hugging,laffing...
as supranee said...
"i think i'll remember our tyme together at all these rehearsals more than the actual day itself."
it's so true...
i noe fer sure i'd alwaes remeber the musical dae itself...
the product of all our efforts and hard work...
but wad i'd remember more...
is the tyme i spent with the rest of the muscial cast...
it's something i'd give almost anything to relive..
yes,even more than the muscial dae itself.
clarice said "the fun is in the making..."
and i agree with her...and to think that...
that...
after this,our lives will be back to normal...
sometimes,wen rehearsals getr tiring and veri veri trying...
and when we think that we've been working so hard,
for nothing...
i look back,frowning at myself in disagreement.
for all of us in the musical,have gained something so special,
that few people would understand...
we've become friends...
and not just...those kinda people you say hi to when you pass along the corridor.
more like...
friends so close...and almost inseparable...
forgive me if you see this relationship as anything else,but it seems this to me.
when skool jux started this term,and we all met up at 1.45 for a briefing,
as we left...Mrs Ng saw us all together...
and she stared at us in disbelief...
she went "you girls have gotten so close,so fast...it's very scary."
last nite...some of us musical cast had a "conversation" thru sms...
it was rather sadd...i had refused to think of what was to happen after the musical.
but last nite...
last nite...we all realized that...as the musical date drew nearer...so did the end of our rehearsals...our tyme spent together the way we spend it now...
but as Mrs Tan put it...life continues...it's reality.
sadd to think of it that way...but she's right.
Ms Loh said we should treasure this moment with each other..
cux we'll never get it back...
never.
i want us..all the musical cast...to make a pact.
that even after the musical...we'll remain as close as ever...
even when the oldest move off after their O's...
and perhaps...10 years down the road...we'll haf a reunion..
all wearing The Father's Hand shirt...
and wen people ask.."what is that shirt you're wearing?"
we can all go..."were u there?or are you a square?"
but now...seeing the musical draw closer and closer...
i wanna take this chance...to treasure this special tyme...with everyone.
at least we know that if we work hard enuff now,the audience will remember us to0...
n i hope we'd haf impacted most of the audience's lives...
now...a few shots....taken off neri's photo blog...hope yew dun mind gurl...haha
dis was taken wen we all went out fer lunch with ms loh...i'll never forget it...haha...
same dae..obviously....haha
these are mah first two hubbies...haha...sam n rhubz...it's a confusing family tree...dun try figuring it out.
*sniffs...not a veri gud picture...but ah wells.
clarice,neri n audrey...our lil braT...haha
steph and neri here...both lookin as kewt n sweet as they are in real life...haha
a rather blurry pic...but..ah wells.
mi n dearie nic..mah third hubby...haha....she's vewi huggable by the wae.haha
dear shalini..mah fourth hubby...haha...fruiTy...Letitia and neri...
yesyes...that's me...with a tree...a crooked tree,not a cactus...but a tree nonetheless.haha
yeppx...that's pretty much all of the pics...i'll totally treasure them.
they're mah memories...precious things i carn bear to lose.
im gonna start bringing mah cam along everywhere ta take pics of all of us at de last few rehearsals...so what if it aint a digi cam...
dey capture memories all de same...haha....
shall leave it at dat...n to all musical cast...
i luv u guys loads!!we'll touch people's lives together!!
*mah own world*
i fear...
being left onli with memories
to hold on to...
please promise...
dat we'll remain as close as ever..
dat nuthin will change.
that inside,
we'll still be the musical casT...
it's dream i dun wanna let go of...
dun make mi..
please....
THE FATHER'S HAND...BE THERE OR BE SQUARE!!
Charis Vera `livedd @ 5:48:00 pm
rehearsals todae....
tiring.
awful.
tiring.
awful.
did i mention it was tiring?
ms chao onli came at 4.10...i was called up ta wait since....3.20?
so i went to de toilet n slept fer about 20mins...
man it was nice:)
den after dat i started singing...dunno wth happened ta mah voice?it was awful..
all screechy and stuff....gudness....so upset wif mahself...
i was cringing listenin ta mah own voice...
mrs tan jux sms-ed mi....she saed it was 14 daes til de musical....
manx,come ta think of dat...it's realli scary...
especially wen mah voice is so awful...im so scared of ruining de whole musical.
i dunno why...as i was wallkin back home todae....i was thinkin of...
well,zhiyong...
yeaa...i still miss him.
kinda sto0pid huh?
i noe eli told mi ta ferget bout him....
but..wen think i haf...
*sighh...
i guess de song which clarice sings in de Father's Hand realli applies...
*mah own world*
~to see you once again~
the tears cannot stop fallin...
fer de love...
i lost todae...
de colour of the rainbow's gone...
my sky...
has turned ta grey...
all i haf..
are yesterdaes.
wen all...was gud and well.
regret now drowns mah weary soul...
im nuthin but a shell....
[chorus]i've lost de spark,
dat lit mah life...
i've lost de tune i hummed...
i've lost de fren..
none can replace.
im lost thru all mah daes....
is dis a nitemare dat haunts mah dreams?
or is dis reality?
if onli i could....
turn back tyme...
and haf you here..
with mi...
in de lonely darkness of mah mind..
im jux left with emptiness..
and pain.
wad wud i gif to be..
by ur side...
to see you once again...[chorus]
mah heart cries out,
with all it's soul...
for the dream that had to end...
these tears will never...
stop fallin...
mah soul has lost...
its...onli....fren...
de lyrics is kinda all over de place..but i dun realli care...
ah wells...
hope clarice wun mind mi puttin "her song" up here..haha
adults alwaes sae people mha age wud never be able to sing this song..
cux we've never been thru enuff heartache.
we haf.
they jux dunno...
dey assume we're still lil kids hu hafn't seen de world...
n de saddest thing aint dat dey're ryte...
in fact,
they're wrong.
we haf seen de world fer wad it realli is...
and that's why it's so sadd.
i've decided to take responsibility of mah health..
mah voice.
n do mah best to preserve mah voice til de musical.
i promised mrs tan n ms loh.
im gonna gif dis last two weeks mah all...
gonna gif mah 110%.
i promise.
tomorroe...dere's gonna be musical rehearsal...again.
*sighh
i aint complain...
nort exactly.
it's jux...well,tiring.
but it'll all be worth it wen everythin comes out puuuuuuurrrrrfecT on dat dae.
im lookin foward to it...
but i'm so scared of ruining everything.
gawd.i need ta get a grip on mahself.
o God you hafta save mi...
you're mah last and onli hope...
all mah ryte answers fail mi...
i can't seem ta make it...
on mah own...
one of mah favourite christian songs...haha
ah wells...
shall end of here...
n attempt ta blog at least once a week from now on...
to0 lazy nowadaes ya?
haha....
o yarh, btw..
y'all had betta get ur musical tix ASAP..
it's gonna be worth every penny you pay...and we've all worked so hard fer dis...
man..you gotta buy ur tix if you hafn't yet!!
another wilte advert.haha
*mah own world*
yeaa..it's true.
i do miss you.
but so what?
now you noe..
it's probably wun change a shitt.
i still do think of you ya noe...
dunno if you think of mi to0...
but im nort supposed ta care ryte?
im supposed ta haf gawn on wif life alreadi..
moved on.
fergotten about you.
but the truth is...
you're the reason i'm still holdin back...
yeaa,i miss you.
i realli do.
but it wun change a shitt aniwae.
*mah heart cries out...
with all it's soul..
fer de dream dat had to end..
de tears will never..
stopp fallin..
mah soul has lost..
its...
onli...
fren.....*
Charis Vera `livedd @ 8:27:00 pm
hey y'all...
dis week wasnt to0 badd afta all...haha
mah form teacher aint to0 badd after all...haha...
she's s0 dedicated...i realli wanted to go up to her after class n thank her...
she's de onli teacher hu goes on bout our grades,
n u can see she realli wants us to do well,not for her...
but realli...cux she cares...
she made us promise we'd all hand in de homework she gaf on tuesdae...
n we cudnt help but promise cud we?
she asked it so nicely...
n with such sadness and desperation in her voice...
i shall make an efforT to be a gud gurl!!hahaa....
de musical's coming along real nice...we decided we were at about...75%?
yeaa...pretty much...but we're aiming fer...
purrrrrfectioN...haha...
dun realli noe wad'll be happenin todae...or tmr...
*sighh
aw manx...im kinda bored now...so im jux...wstin tyme n stuff...
yeppx...aniwae,shall go do mah homework..yesyes,i am guai.
vewi vewi guai..
gud.
holy.
pure.
INNOCENT.
haha...
o yarh...btw...
peopLe!! musical tix ainT sold ouT yet...!!
about 200 tix left fer fridae nite...and 500+ fer saturdae afternOoN...
go geddit while yew can!!it's something u dun wanna miss!!
jux doing a lil advert=)
hahaa....
Charis Vera `livedd @ 1:44:00 pm
im overwhelmed with confusion...
my feelings so messed up ryte now....
my mother says crushes on gurls are normal...
but it's lyk...
o,i dunno...
i think im thinkin to0 much...
i shudnt be thinkin lyk dis...
cux she's jux a fren...
a fren...
a fren...jux a fren...
den dere's oso sumoNe else i carn stopp thinkin of...
sighh...
sumone hu's jux a freN...
bot a new swimming costume....a tankini...mah first*blushes proudly*
haha....
it's real nice...
im os proud of it...
n guess which part i luv best?!
de bikini bottom...manx...it's so nice....haha....
went fer dinner at kenny rogers...nice.
chatted with nicola,de dirty old man bout sum stuff n sum more stuff....
haha....
ending off here cux mah eyes are closin as i type dis...
Charis Vera `livedd @ 11:15:00 pm
[me .]
[Countess Jemimah Eveil]
[ex-netballer]
[English Literatury Drama and Debate]
[march17_baby@hotmail.com]
I hope you never fear the
mountains in the distance.
Never settle for the path
of least resistance.
Lovin' might be a mistake
but its worth making.
When you get a chance to
sit it out or dance.
I hope you dance
Promise me you'll give faith
a fighting chance.
Give the heavens above more
than just a passing glance.
Realised i like you
for who you are,
I can't tell you its
a facade:
Don't let your hell bent heart
leave you bitter,
When you come close
to selling out,
please reconsider.
I hope you dance
