THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
1. cockroaches
2. goin ta hell
3. de kid i used ta babysit wen he laffed n cried at de same tyme.ekks
THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
1. eli->wen she's in a gud mood n being lame
2. joeL tang
3. amutha
THREE PEOPLE I LOVE:
1. mah mama
2. eli?she's mah gud fren=)
3. sUmoNe
THREE THINGS I LOVE:
1. music
2. music
3. de beach
THREE THINGS I HATE:
1. screamin brats
2. cockroaches
3. fallin in luv
THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
1. why life is de wae it is
2. why eli is keepin so quiet on de fone
3. holidaes hafta end so early
THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
1. makeup
2. pictures
3. earrings
THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
1. typing
2. chattin wif eli on de fone
3. chattin wif eli online=)
THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
1. forge a singing career
2. rite a book
3. be a vet=)
THREE COLORS I LIKE:
1. black
2. blue
3.red
THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
1. act
2. get high
3. get high?=)haha
THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
1. high
2. interesting?
3. high=)
THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
1. ferget bout him*sighh
2.get rid of mah sista...*i've tried evrything!!
3. hate mah sister
THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
1. tata young
2. me tokin...?=)
3. jay chou!!a must haf!
THREE THINGS I DON'T THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO
EVER:
1. william hung...it's sto0pid n lame n he looks retarded
2. guys makin out wif guys..noRt dat i haf...
3. tone-deaf ppl tryin ta sing
THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
1. hahahahahaha
2. wads fer breakfast/lunch/dinner
3. huh?
THREE OF MY ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
1. sushi
2. curry chicken
3. grilled salmon!
THREE THINGS I'D LIKE TO LEARN:
1. how ta lose weight while eating?
2. how ta noRt cry fer lost luv
3. wad they teach in skooL=)
THREE BEVERAGES I DRINK REGULARLY:
1. coffee
2. beer
3. caramel frapiccinno
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO VISIT:
1. lala land
2. heaven...but i'd lyk ta stae dere=)
3. LA...but i wanna stae dere to0=)
THREE PERFUMES YOU LIKE:
1. T gurL
2. adidas-icy burst
3. elizabeth arden-green tea
THREE FAVORITE FLAVORS OF ICE-CREAM:
1. choco chip
2. mint
3. chocolate chip mint
THREE WISHES YOU HAVE:
1. more sleep
2. extended holidaes
3. wad i want
THREE FAVORITE CELEBS OF THE OPPSOSITE GENDER:
1. jay chou
2. jeremy sumpter...aaaaaaaaahh,he's so kewT
3. braD piTT
THREE FAVORITE CELEBS OF THE SAME GENDER:
1. mah mama?but she aint exactly a celeb=)
2. jessica alba.definately
3. christina auguilera
A - Age :13
B - Brands favourite: addidas, OP...i aint dat brand conscious
C - Career in future: singing=)mmmmmm....vetinary
D - Dancing as a career: nah...
dun think it's mi
E - Easiest person to talk to: elizabeth i think
F - Favourite song at the moment: dun cry fer mi argentina...alwaes was,alwaes will be
G - Gum balls or gummy bears: gummy bears
H - Hometown: UK...farnbrough,Kent
I - Instruments: piano,didn get pass grade2...n drums.
J - Jungle or Sea-side: sea side
K - Kids: maximum four
L - lefty or righty: righty
M - Meat or Vegetables: prefarably biscuits!!
N - Number of siblings: 1
O - O Town or Plus One: plus one
P - Phobia[s]: cockroaches
Q - Quantity or Quality (for anything): quality
R - Reason to smile: knowin dat sumone out dere cares!
S - Song you sang last: jessica simpson's with you
T - Time you wake up: late
U - Unknown fact about me: if i tell u..it'll be known wudn't it?
V - Vegetable you dislike most: egg plant.eeeeeeeeeww
W - Worst habit: gettin high to0 often?
X - Xavier or Jean Grey: jean grey
Y - Yolk or Egg White: white
Z - Zodiac: pieces
BRIEFLY: Who/What comes to your mind
when these things are mentioned?
Mornings: skool
Lunch: break
Afternoons: suntan
Evening: home
Mall: shopping!
Movie: wif a guy?
Arcade: DDR
Carparks: petroL smell
Music: old songs?
Cars: porshe convertable=)
Chocolate: fattening
Beer: gettin drunk n hafin mah secrets revealed?which is mah current state=)
Cream Puffs: nice but fattening
Green: vegetables
Orange: and orange
---Which do you Prefer---
1.WHITE OR RED ROSES?: red
2.ORIGINAL OR COPY?: original
3.FAME, FORTUNE OR BOTH?: fame
4.RICKY MARTIN OR WILLIAM HUNG(AMERICAN IDOL)?: ricky martin
5.INCUBUS CONCERT OR KEITH MARTIN CONCERT?: dunno dun care
6.CSI OR CSI: o0o!wad a difficult question!i choose csi!!
7.MULLET, MOHAWK, OR DREADLOCKS?: mohawk i guess
8. LIFE or DEATH?: death
9.RING(JAPANESE VER) OR THE RING(AMERICAN VER)?: the square!!
10.MUDSLIDE OR BAILEYS?: baileys...=))one of mah faves
----Question & Answer----
1.If you were the very last person on earth...?
- i'd be alone.
2.If you could kill someone with no problems
- mmmmmm...dere's alot of ppl?*eviL grin
3.Do you agree with Same-Sex Marriage?
- nah
5.If you were in a party at Europe and someone
with the same sex kissed you on the lips, what
would you do?
- do i noe her?
6.If you could turn back time, What year would
you turn the time back to?
- wen i was jux a lil gurL...
Do u share ur room with anybody else? If so, who?
> no one!!yayerS.haha
. What is d condition of ur room right now?
> artisically deranged
. What is d colour of ur rooom wall?
> white n white?
. Who painted it?
> no idea. Haha. Maybe I didit aint painted manx
Is ur wall decorated? (eg. wif posters, etc.)
> yeaa
. Would u say ur room is small, big, or what?
> medium
. List 3 of ur most favourite possessions in ur
rm:
1. mah cd collection
2. mah collection of neoprints
3. mah hp!
. What is d size of ur bed?
> single
. How many pillow and bolster are on it?
> 3 pillows n one bolster
. What is on ur bed right now?
> pillows,bolsters,stuffed toys...blanket...2 alarm clocks
. What's under your bed?
> the floor// crap,crap n more crap
. Do u have ur own personal bathroom in ur rm?
> nah
. Do u hide sumtin illegal in ur rm?
> wudnt u lyk ta noe?=)
. How many windows does ur room have?
> enuff,but r covered by curtains
. What's on ur ceiling?
> de light
. Do u study in ur rm?
> yeaa
. What do u like most about ur rm?
> de makeup...de PRIVACY
. What do u dislike most abt ur rm?
> de mess
. What is on ur door?
> besides the doorknob...posters
. Do u clean ur rm regularly?
> nah
i am not: disciplined
i am hurt: in sum waes
i love: checkin out kewt guys
i hate: screamin brats
i fear: love n hurt...
i hope: dat dere'll be an announcement of de extention of hols
i crave: sleep
i regret: a lot of things
i cry: wen im angri,hurt
i care: about lotsa stuff
i always: sing while i bathe=)
i long: ta find true happiness based nort on lust or money but purely on luv
i feel alone: u do...but mebbe i dun!*sobx...im all alone!
i listen: to the radio n wadeva i feel lyk listenin to
i hide: stuff i dun wan nosey ppl ta find
i sing: while i bathe
i dance: wen im high n wen i feel lyk it
i write: to express mah feelings
i breathe: to fill de surrounding air wif precious carbon dioxide which came from mah precios bodi!haha
i miss: LA
i search: fer de answers...to life,to homework
i learn: wen i bother ta listen in class?
i feel: high n tired
i know: dat love hurtx
i wonder: why things are de wae it is
i say: wad i mean...
i succeed: afta trials n errors
i fail: in being perfect,dun we all?
i wish: fer mah wishes ta come true
YOUR LIFE____ [x]
they call me: charis
[x] also: squibigg assests,sto0pid gurl,anne's daughter
[x] sex: female
[x] my first breath of air: de dae everyone found true happiness=)17th march 1991
[x] age: 13
[x] status: single
[x] occupation: student,part tyme trouble maker
[x] nationality: British,Singapore PR
[x] best friend[s]: elizabeth,sarah.mah mama...
____REWIND____
[x] most memorable memory: those in LA...
[x] first word uttered: worD? dat's kinda hard ta remember
[x] first best friend ever: amanda
____FAST FORWARD____
[x] college planning to go: ACJC? most likely will be in college,in LA by then
[x] wedding: in LA,in de open,nort in church
[x] children: maximum four,minimum 3
[x] looking forward to: de end of de same ball of string i've been unwinding all mah life
[x] NOT looking forward to: de end of de same ball of string i've been unwinding all mah life=))
____PLAY____
[x] feeling: tired and sleepy. high n drunK.wheeeee
[x] listening: the aircon drip
[x] talking: to eli online?
[x] doing: breathing,typing
[x] craving: sleep
[x] thinking of: mah bed
[x] hating: mah current bordom
____LOVE?____
[x] love is: fun,hurtful n about givin n takin
[x] best love song: two less lonely ppl in de world
[x] is it possible to be in love w/ more than one person @ the same time?: yeaa.but in a RELATIONSHIP wif one
____true or false?____
[x]all you need is to be loved: false
[x]is dere such thk as love @ first sight? yeaa
____THE OPPOSITE SEX____
[x] turn ons: eyes,smile
[x] turn offs: ego-centirc asses
[x] does your parents' opinion on your bf/gf matter to you?: yeaa,in sum wae
[x] what kinda hair style?: spiked
[x] the sweetest thing dat the opposite sex can do for you: smile n be dere wen i need him most
[x] are you the type of person to holler n ask for numbers?:if i feel up to it=)
____PICKY PICKY____
[x] dog or cat: cat
[x] short or long hair: no preference
[x] innie or outie: outie
[x] sunshine or rain: both
[x] basketball or football: bball!!!
[x] righty or lefty: Righty
[x] hugs or kisses: both
[x] bf/gf or best friend: mah best fren comes first=)
[x] starbucks or jamba juice: starbucks
[x] written letters or e-mails: written letters
[x] playstation or nintendo: playstation
[x] disney or nickelodeon: disney
[x]
car or motorcycle: motorbike
[x] house party or club: cLuB
[x] sing or dance: both
____MISCELLANEOUS____
[x] can you swim?: yeaa
[x] whats your most embarrassing moment?: dis aint gonna be one of em
[x] what are you scared of?: leaving dis world alone
[x] what is your greatest accomplishment?: hafin finished mah hmwork?
[x] do you like tomatoes?: YES!!!!! I lurve them.
[x] last doctor visit: de last dae or term2
[x] last phone call: half an hour ago
*************************************************************************
im bored.
im bored.
im bored.
o0o0o...
guess wad?
i got mah new fone...happiness is all arounD...haha
got drunk wif mah mama...was laffin at...nuthin.still am.
haha....
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
de world is ROUND.
manx,i gotta stopp gettin high.
ciao y'all.
Charis Vera `livedd @ 11:31:00 pm
de fountain at parco bugis always has lil children running thru it...
enjoying the spray of water on their faces...
drenching their clothes.
wetting their hair.
their happiness clearly visible...
their laughter ringing in your ears...
when i first saw those kids playing with the water n running in and out,i was rather disgusted.
who knew where the water came from?
why couldn't they quit screaming,for goodness sake it was a shoppping centre.
not a beach or a swimming pool.
i couldn't understand the joy they found getting themselves drenched with water which might've come from the toilet!
but today,as i watched those young children getting sprayed with water,i discovered an innocent beauty...
one so simple, yet beautiful that many fail to notice.
i had forgotten what it meant to enjoy yourself without giving a droplet of shitt about people watching...
i badly wanted to take out my camera and capture the beauty,but a fugly guy ruined the beautiful innocent scene.
he was about 14 i think.n fer gudness sake!
the fountain shud either be left alone or left free for lil INNOCENT kids to play in.
but noooooo...
dis guy decided it'd be real fun gettin himself horny there.
sto0pid ass.
attempted to get my new fone today,but nothing got sorted out.crapp.hopefully by tomorroe it'll all be ok.
the happenings in my house in the past half an hour.
my cat gave birth to new life!
i had seen it once before,but i chose to watch the end of the process again.
hamster-size wet scraggly things crawled around blindly,meowing loudly for milk.
to be honest,being so close was real smelly.realli.
but dey look kewt n fluffy afterwards.
shame,i'll be givin em awae.all of em.
yeaa.
s0 listen up y'all,
if u hafn't gotten ur PL musical tix,go get em...n if u wan,u get a kewt fluffy kitten free!!
til next tyme,ciao.
*mah own world*
we kinda grew up together.
went thru so much it seems.
u've been a realli close fren,
n now u sae u're leavin.
i'm realli gonna miss u.
n i'll think of u everydae.
yes,it's true.
you are a fren...
de closest guy fren i've ever had.
but sumhow it was the thot of u not being so near...
that caused the shedding of my tears.
Charis Vera `livedd @ 9:49:00 pm
ok...fer info on wad happened at de yesterdae's class outing...go to de shared blog wif mi n shiyun=))
all de info dere...pLus de guy wif de ron factor!!*screams*
todae`
daddi took us ta sentosa.n we had a picnic dere n suntanned!!
wheeeeeeeeee...
but mah tan aint dat gud.*sighh
went shoppin afta dat=))
an OP bag n adidas shoes=)
pretty much it larh.haha...
tmr will be goin ta acsb ta hang out wif mah mama...act touristy n probably take pix=)
haha....
vineyard will be kinda empty i guess...sar n soph in club med
haii.
hope dat brat tiffany doesnt come.eeeeeeeeeekks
n o0o0o0,yayerS.i'll be gettin mah new fone latest by mondae!!
hopefully tmr=))im so happi...!!haha
but if u guys sms...dun be suprised if de reply is lyk wierd?cux de buttons haf taken to "goin asleep"
wdv.
so irritating.
sto0pid fone.
aniwae...til next tyme...ciao y'all...
Charis Vera `livedd @ 11:12:00 pm
one word to describe todae-wasted.
sigh...
i'll nvr learn will i?
plus,de date n timing of de blog is screwed up...u gotta out it one dae back.irritating thing.
staed at home...fer de whoLe dae.
sadd.
true.
soph's family n all those hu went ta malaysia r headin home tmr mornin.arrivin on thurdae.
wait...i dun mind...realli i dun.
i dun mind de fact that i passed up the chance of goin to malaysia...wifout mah mama...but wif a bucha frens n their parents.
actually....im pretty happi i staed in singapore.n i mean it...he'll see her true self everntually ryte?
even if it wasnt over this holidae...prehaps...nxt tyme
wth.sooner or later he'll see...
n if u're wonderin hu im tokin about...continue wonderin.
u aint gonna noe.
ta take mah mind off wad mah mind is on now=))
i'm gonna haf a sleepover!yayerS.we'll see wen.nuthin's decided.
til then.ciao
*mah dedication to mah daddi*
n there's,
sumthin i wish i cud sae...
i shud dae it everydae,
but sumtymes things in de wae.
so im gonna take a moment...
n if,
u shud eva go awae,
i could nvr be de same
i love u more than words can sae,
n i think dat u shud noe it...
u help mi...
keep smilin'
keep shinin'
knowin i can alwaes count on u...
fer sure.
that's wad dad's r for...
fer gud tymes,
n bad tymes
u'll be on mah side for evermore...
dat's wad dad's are for...
Charis Vera `livedd @ 10:04:00 pm
*mah own world*
i dun miss u...
but i aint happi u're gawn.
im wonderin wad u did todae
wifout mi...
but wif him.
n i thot u were mah fren...
mah day began at 11am.*yawn
check stuff out on the computer...n at 12.30 went jogging.
yesyes,i m a gud gurl=))
den went suntanning...
kinda red on one side onli.sad...
den dis guy started chattin wimme...kinda freaky...he thot i was in JC 1 or 2
haha...didn tell him mah real age tho.chatchatchat,
den lil sista called mi ta go home=))
being a gud lil gurl,i went home.tidied up de house cux dere were sum ppl comin ta view de place..
den we went out wif mama...wen ta eat kenny rogers n now feelin fatt again.haii
wad we did aftawards was nice..shop til we dropped realli.haha,no nort realli..we cud've shopped more..'cept the shops were closin le...haha..we bot lotsa stuff...n gonna find tyme within the next 13 daes to buy summore=))
altogether..it was a fun end ta mah rather eventless dae....
came back home,dat sto0pid faggot james neo had shooed mah cat into mah mum's room n she,wanting to be comfortable...pulled out everythin from our cupboards.jux afta i haf spent n hour tidying mah cupboard up de other dae.i was so friggin pissed?hu wudnt be?!
den i asked mah mum if i shud tell mah dad wad happened n she was lyk.."i'll sms larh."
but noeing how sto0pid n slow he is...he wudnt geddit.so i was lyk..."nah..he wun geddit,i want sumone ta shout down his faggoty ear!"
yayerS.he apologized...nuthin much,but ahwells.
shall end off here...til nxt tyme...i bid thee gudnyte.=))
Charis Vera `livedd @ 11:43:00 pm
*mah own world*
here i am,in this place again...
how did i manage ta mess up one more tyme?
dis pattern seems ta be...
the story of mah life..
shud've learned this lesson by the thousandth tyme.
cux i promised mahself i wudnt fall.
but here i've fallen.
i guess im nort as strong as i thot.
all i can do...is cry to you....
O God u hafta save mi...
u're mah last and onli hope...
all mah right answers fail mi...
i can't seem ta make it on mah own...
it seemed to0 gud to be true...
shudn't haf been suprised wen i heard a logical explanation fer an opinion.
it's inevitable...she gets hu she wants.even if she feels nothing.
got it messed up,de sohs didn go to malaysia..haha...nort feelin so alone animore.haha. i realli hope eli can stae ova at mah place sumtyme during the week...i need her company.haha...n im gonna suntan de whole week! i aint gonna gif a shit bout mah piercing.haha.i'm gonna get realli dark!i'll at least try larh.
nuthin much went on todae.went to cmc.hung out wif shiyun,den met up wif sar n went ta parkway.bot lotsa stuff....haha...
guess i'll jux end off here...mah sis wants to use de com,n being de nice mi...yes, i m gifing it up ta her...haha.wdv...ciao y'all...nite
*mah own world*
i cried...
wad's it to you?
i luved...
u didn gif a shit aniwae.
u plaed wif mah feelings...
or mebbe i jux misread everything.
mah own stupidity i guess...
it alwaes is
alwaes will be
dis aint the last tyme...
i fear.
Charis Vera `livedd @ 9:25:00 pm
LAYER ONE: What is your..?
-- Name: charis ng vera mei yi
-- Birth date: march 17th
-- Birthplace: UK...Farnbrough,Kent
-- Current Location: mah living room
-- Eye Color: brown
-- Hair Color: dark brown
-- Height: to0 short fer my liking
-- Right handed or Left handed: right
LAYER TWO:
-- Heritage: Chinese
-- Weakness: fer guys? their eyes...haha
-- Biggest fears: things wif more than six legs
-- Your perfect pizza: hawaiian
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: to do wad i wanna do...be hu i wanna be
LAYER THREE: Your…?
-- Most overused phrase(s): that's s0 farnieh i fergot ta laff
-- Thoughts first waking up: is Singapore the onli country hu gets kids to go to sku at unearthly hours?
-- Best physical feature: mah eyes i guess=)
-- Usual bedtime: varies from 11pm-3am
-- Most missed memory: those back in LA,wif mah family...
LAYER FOUR: Preferences..?
-- Pepsi or Coke: pepsi
-- McDonald's or Burger King: Burger king
-- Single or group dates: preferably single
-- Lipton Iced Tea or Nestea: lipton
-- Cappuccino or Latte: latte
LAYER FIVE: Do you…?
-- Smoke: prehaps,prehaps nort.wad do u think...?
-- Sing: yes...n dun laff i bet u do to0
-- Take a shower every day: duh?
-- Do you think you've been in love: i think i haf...tHiNk
-- Want to get married: yeaa...
-- Believe in yourself: i guess,in sum waes...
-- Get motion sickness: nah
-- Think you're a health freak: definately nort.
-- Get along with your parents: i'm real close ta mah mom
-- Like thunderstorms: wen im down n moody.
-- Play an instrument: piano...drums...but i suck at both=)
LAYER SIX: In the past month, you’ve…?
-- Drank alcohol: yeaa...n got drunk,man was dat embarrassing
-- Gone on a date: yeaa...
-- Gone to the mall: hello?hu doesnt?haha...
-- Eaten sushi: yeppx..mah favourite food!
-- Been on stage: yeaa,i think i haf...
-- Been dumped: yeaa...
-- Gone skating: ice-skating,nah..
-- Shoplifted: u will nvr noe...
-- Changed who you were to fit in: nort exactly..
LAYER EIGHT:
-- Age you hope to be married: 24-28
-- Numbers and Names of Children: 4 kids...James,Jemimah Shuling,Elizabeth MeiYing and the last one will depend on the genda of the child=)
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: mah dress,drop shoulder,ivory coloured.come in on a black horse,most likely mine n the wedding will take place in an open field...yes,i haf mah life planned out in detail.haha
-- How do you want to die: in mah own home,in mah sleep.wif mah loved ones alwaes remembering that i love them
LAYER NINE:
-- In a girl/boy, you would want…: to find happiness n frenship.
-- Best eye color: blue or brown
-- Best hair color: dark brown...haha mebbe wif blue highlights
-- Hair: spiked up,nort to0 much tho...
-- Height: taller than mi...
-- Weight: doesnt realli matter...
-- First date location: definately the beach.
LAYER TEN: List the number of:
-- Drugs taken illegally: 0...
-- People I trust with my life: 3,mah mum...mah best fren n GOD
-- CDs that I own: never enuff...haha
-- Piercings: one on mah left,five on mah right...n a belly button one to0=)
-- Tattoos: none...yet.haha
-- Times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: dun think it has ever appeared...
-- Scars on my body: mmmmm...to0 many ta count.wae to0 many ta count
-- Things in my past that I regret: to0 many...
i aint over-reacting...
soph,dez,jo,sar,megan,sam soh,sam choo,aidan....they're all goin awae...
mah mama asked if i wanted ta go to0...but i chose nort to...i dun exactly regret that,but seeing them tok about it todae...it kinda made mi realize i was missing out...
pLus,nicola...she's goin overseas to0...tsk.
guess this third week wont be spent hangin out wif frens lyk i thot...they're hangin out all ryte...n so m i.'cept im hangin out by mahself while they haf each other...
man,i sound so friggin pathetic.i hafta stopp that man...
now there's peace in the house,mah sister,younger sister i might add,has,unlyk mi, gawn to enjoy her holidae...if onli a lil...by stayin ova at her fren's place.shall ask eli if she'd lyk ta stae ova sumtyme during the week...mebbe.
todae's vineyard was quite nice...'cept afta dat,everyone was tokin bout wad to pack...hu had or hadn't packed...complainin bout how troublesum it was hafin ta pack.i watch on in silence...wishing i was able to join in the excitement...the confusion.sad but true...
guess that's about it...i s0 gotta stoP wallowing in self-pity here...i bid thee farwell,gudnyte.n to those hu r goin awae...haf fun...seriously...takkair n haf fun...
n how cud i ever ferget....
hApPi bUrFdAe KeWt LiL vIcKaE!!!
Charis Vera `livedd @ 11:25:00 pm
sumthin i need to learn...
i alwaes say that i meant to do certain things...i had planned to do it...
but alwaes forgetting...furthur procrastinating...
holidae homework,i haf of course started...
but it seems there is no end in sight...prehaps if i had done it as i had
intended to...there wudnt seems sucha large amount...but as such.
musical rehearsals went alright todae...we can almost see the actual thing now...
taking form after so much hard work...=)
those hu hafn't bot ur tix to de PL musical...
g0 geddit b4 it's sold out!!
haha...it's somethin u'll kill urself fer missing...haha...
ner was supposed ta stae ova tonite...
we were gonna pamper ourselves with face n hair masks,turnin mah home into a spa..
but hey! we do deserve it...we've been back at skool fer two whole weeks!hardly any rest..why shudnt we hang out n do girlie stuff?haha
but as expected,her mama didn allow...
well,prehaps eli can tmr...prehaps...shall plae by ear...
shall end off here...takkair y'all...i bid thee gudnyte...n farewell...=)
Charis Vera `livedd @ 10:01:00 pm
a few daes ago...lookin foward to this dae,i had planned out my agenda.
homework,computer,excercise...n partieh.
not that much...not exactly little...
today came.and went...i did nothing of what i had planned...
my day officially started at 11.30 in the morning.breakfast as normal,with my little sister.then i hit the computer...
the day was pretty much wasted...jux tv..and the computer...tv...then back to the computer again...
tomorroe...skool awaits...hopefully i'll make better use of my time there than i haf here,at home...
mah blog's got a song alreadi..!!
yayers...enjot it...haha
*
mah own world*
i dun understand...
why dun i geddit...
sumhow i carn believe...
tho u've alreadi saed it...
Charis Vera `livedd @ 9:07:00 pm
*mah own world*
life's alreadi confusin...
why make it so hard?
i'm onli a lil gurl,
but mah heart's alreadi scarred...
i've learnt enuff ta noe,
that gurls shud neva show...
how we truely feel...
until we're realli sure it's real...
but wot happens after that...
is left unsaid...
the gurl is left wonderin...
if it was wise to do as such...
sum guys freak out...
but most haf nvr felt the same in the first place.
walkin around town is pointless if your wallet is empty...u look at things you can't buy and wonder if,by the time you haf enuff cash to come back, it'll be sold off to someone else...
we spent all our money,clara n i, on neoprints neoprints...n,wait...did i mention neoprints?but the pics were nice...n shopping around with her was realli nice...
i walked at this suppa slow pace which i carn do wif many other frens...n we jux walked n toked n walked n toked...now mah legs are aching..haha...
we didn hafta do much in sku todae...we jux sang wif de choir n left as soon as we cud...haha...
pretty much it i guess...n tmr i dun hafta go ta sku...yayers...free tmr...
to do wad i wan...
wheeeeeeee...
~don't~
dun look at mi wif dat smile...
dun act lyk everythin's fyne...
stop puttin dreams in mah head...
wen i shud've thot of Him instead...
wen u sae...the things u do...
makes mi want to..
be wif u...
everytyme..u look in mah eyes...
all that i've felt...
sumhow dies....
nono nono...
can't u see wad u're doin ta mi?
nono nono...
Charis Vera `livedd @ 7:20:00 pm
YOUR
.Current Clothes: op shirt n jeans...
.Current Taste: err...an orangey kinda taste?mah coff lozenger...haha
.Current Hair: long,in a ponytail...wif bits of mah fringe flying in mah face....irritating.
.Current thing I ought to be doing: excercising n gettin rid of mah fattS..aaaaaaahh
.Current Desktop Picture: de pic of mi,ner,hannah,vic,rach n linyi wif deniese keller
.Current Book: the bonesetter's daughter...seems kinda interesting
.Current disc in DVD: piano songs 3
LAST PERSON/Thing
. u Talked to Online: vic...n we're still chattin
. u Touched: mmmmmmm...the com keyboard i guess
. u Hugged: mah mama....haha
. u Kissed: zhiyong...but dat was realli long ago?so nvm
. u instant messaged: eli...
. u Yelled At: i guess u can sae yelled along at de hillsongs concert...haha
. u Web cam with: I dont have one.
. u thought about: dat's fer mi to continue thinkin about n fer u to continue thinkin bout wad i've been thinkin about =)
ARE YOU
. Understanding: if i want to be...
. Open-minded: i guess so...
. Insecure: yeaa...bout sum stuff
. Interesting: nah...
. Random: wad?
. Hungry: nah...i've been stuffin mah face n i feel fatt
. Friendly: i guess so...if i see a veri lonely,unwanted kewt person,prehaps=)
. Smart: smart enuff ta noe dat mah right hand aint mah left...or issit?
. Moody: i can be i guess...try nort ta be tho..haha
. Independent: yeaa
. Organized: if u call planning fer a movie 5mins b4 it starts organized then...yeppx,i am.
. Short-tempered: nah....but dun try mah patience...hee
HAVE YOU EVER
. Been kissed: yeaa...by both guys n gurls..haha...n dun start to think to0 much kae!
. How many times: err....lets see....i fergot?kisses aint sumthin u count kae!
. Eaten an entire box of Oreos?: i dun think so...haha
. Been on stage: yeaa...quite a few tymes...haha
. Dumped Someone: yeaa...
. Been in a car accident: nah...
. Been in love: yeaa...i guess...
. Been Cheated: yeppx....n i was so sadded....wehhhh
DO YOU PREFER
. Coffee or hot chocolate: h0t chocoLate!
. Xbox or Playstation: playstation
. Sony or panasonic: sony...
. Mexx or Banana republic: definately banana repub
. Guess or Gap: mmmmm....gap
. Jeans or cords: jeans definately..
. Sweater or hoodie: depends i guess...
. T-shirt or long sleeve: i lyk both! haha
. Wool or cotton: no preference...
. Rose or Lily: rose...
. Rock or Pop: depends on mah mood...
. Everybody loves Raymond or That 70's show: neither....
DO YOU
. have a Girlfriend: nah...
. have a Boyfriend : nope...
. have a boy bestfriend: we're close?but nort exactly best fren larh...
. have a girl bestfriend: yeppx...
Charis Vera `livedd @ 8:51:00 pm
the hillsings concert was realli realli nice....l0ud...n nice.haha
de best part was,of course, jumping around with my friends...
everyone there was real enthu...jump jump jump.haha
dere was dis
hUgE guy standing n jumping in front of us?n i think he didn bathe b4 comin fer de concert or sumthin?cux u cud smell him from a mile awae!
n wen he was jumpin...lyk...mi n rach were so scared he was gonna jump on us...haha
n of course,as it alwaes has ta be,dearie vicky decided,of all ppl, she lyked jumping on de pastor's feet...but she didn noe those feet belonged to de pastor?wen she told mi she had been boucing off de feet of de guy behind her..i turned to check out the poor soul n his stomped-on feet...n dere,starin mi in de fce was his tag "pastor"
wen i told vic,she was lyk..."guess dat explains why he aint swearing at mi yet"
den vic was complainin bout mah singing?lyk...o fyne,wdv.haha...
we dragged eli down wif us the third tyme i think...n she didn wanna jump...wif all de jumpin bouncin ppl arnd us,she was de onli one hu was standin still...haha...
den de last tyme...cherry came down wif us...n eli jumped a lil i think..haha
but basically,i had a lot of fun...until dat irritating pastor prince came up..he's real irritating...n he preaches prosperity evangelism...sumthin i dun agree with larh...but he was real irritating...i dun understand why so many ppl lyk him...eeeeeeekks
aniwae,i keep mah other comments to mahself...haha...
yesterdae,went out wif hannah n miles...den afta dat met up wif neri..haha...it was fun jux hangin out n stuff larh...if mah scanner cud scan,u'd be checkin out lotsa realli nice pics...but..n0...it carn seem ta work...wad a lotta use fer a scanner ya?
last nite's vineyard was ok...but de sermon kinda boring..i didn geddit...haha...
afta dat,went back to mg...dey were celebrating weiwen's burfdae?yeppx
den it was so farnieh..everytyme dey wanted to take those nort-smilin pics...joel tang was alwaes laffin...haha...it was real fun...
aniwae...it seems sUmOne i noe has got a gurLfren?o0o0o0o...haha...but i aint sure larh...jux wonder hu de lucky gurl is?i found out todae,from his frenster account?
tsktsk...wot a dark horse u are!honestly!
haha...aniwae,shall end off here cux i need ta get ready...hopin ta watch dae afta tmr...ltr todae...haha...but everythin is alwaes so nort organized...wadde...
aniwae,ciao y'all....
*mah own world*
mah happiness covers mah real feelings,
lyk a mask,it doesnt let u see how i feel inside.
u aint ever gonna noe...
it jux hurt,so much...
i feel sto0pid now,
wondering how i cud haf ever
thot dere was sumthin between us...
feel so sto0pid...
but i jux hope dat mah feelings...
wun get in de wae of our frenship.
cux u dunno,but i treasure it veri much...
it's de closest i'll get to u...
but i wonder if it wud've made any difference...
if u knew how i felt at first...
Charis Vera `livedd @ 10:19:00 am
ryte now life jux seems a waste n once again i wonder wot is the purpose of us being on earth...goin thru pain,happiness,hurt,loss...
i dun even noe why im being so negative...guess jux lyk i aint sure how i shud be reacting to sumthin i've heard...i dunno how i shud be feeling really...
i've alwaes agreed wif de saying "sumtymes it's betta ta be alone,no-one can hurt you"
cux i've been hurt to0 many tymes...i didn wanna fall fer sumone again,onli to get hurt...
it had come to a point where i had sworn that the tears from mah eyes would freeze,becoming the ice around mah heart....hiding mi from hurt,from pain...but also from love...
n yet...sumone walked into mah life and melted all that ice in almost an instant...with jux a smile, so sweet....it was impossible nort to notice n lyk...
it seemed tho i was trying mah hardest to hide feelings of any sort...i cudn't.
i cud onli sit aside and watch wad i cudn't believe to be mahself fall...once again. wondering wen i was yet again going to come to that stage of bursting into tears and promising never to love again...
it seemed i had gawn thru this stage so many tymes...wen during a period of a few months...i wud haf a certain guy's name in mah handfone...keeping all those messages which meant something special to me...after which i wud go about deleting all of those messages wen i realized it wud nvr come to anithing more or wen something had happened that caused me to finally realize that it was all a one-sided infatutation and mah feelings wud nvr be returned....i had gawn thru this stage so many tymes that at the start of mi falling for a particular guy...i wud imagine the end...n wonder why,after being hurt so many tymes, i cud still fall...n still hurt...over n over again...
i shall simply end it off here...for i haf no wish to continue harping on about wot has passed.mah onli hope is that...i wun hafta go thru so much hurt so many tymes before finding sumone i realli lyk...sumone hu'll lyk mi for mi,tho it seems to gud to ask for.
*mah own world*
did i lose mah love to sumone better
and does she love you like i do i do...
u know i realli realli do.
well hey,so much i need to sae...
been crying since the day,the day you went away.
so sad but true..
for me there's onli you...
been crying since the dae...
the dae you went awae...
the dae you went awae,the dae you went awae...
Charis Vera `livedd @ 9:03:00 pm
********de latest song stuck in mah head********
wen i was jux a lil gurl
mah momma used ta tuck mi into bed,
n she read mi a story...
it alwaes was about a princess in distress
n how a guy wud save her n end up wif de glory
i'd lie awake n think about
the person dat, i wanted ta be...
den one dae i realized dis fairytale life,wasn't fer mi...
(chorus)
i dun wanna be lyk cinderella
sittin in a dark old dusty cellar,waitin fer sumbodi...
to come n set mi free...
i dun wanna be lyk snow whyte waitin
for a handsum prince to come n save mi..
on a horse of whyte...unless we're riding side by side...
dun wanna depend on no-one else...
i'd rather rescue mahself
ow manx...i luv dis song!!sung by tata young...yeppx,n it totally rawks...haha
kinda lyk a ms independent song?but nicer...
Charis Vera `livedd @ 6:28:00 pm
[me .]
[Countess Jemimah Eveil]
[ex-netballer]
[English Literatury Drama and Debate]
[march17_baby@hotmail.com]
I hope you never fear the
mountains in the distance.
Never settle for the path
of least resistance.
Lovin' might be a mistake
but its worth making.
When you get a chance to
sit it out or dance.
I hope you dance
Promise me you'll give faith
a fighting chance.
Give the heavens above more
than just a passing glance.
Realised i like you
for who you are,
I can't tell you its
a facade:
Don't let your hell bent heart
leave you bitter,
When you come close
to selling out,
please reconsider.
I hope you dance
